I called a therapist for group therapy again. I have been in therapy for 11 years (in and out of) I am just frustrated that I have to do it again. When am I ever going to feel recovered and competent?

I screwed up another potential relationship again. We were flirting a lot, but I just started feeling lost with no direction. I started feeling powerless and didn't know what to do. I ask her out. she said yes but we didn't get to a conveient time for each other. I kept checking in with her and it feels like she has backed off me. I lfeel like I am in the ocean with out a life float and over my head. I don't know I just don't know!