*** okay wow sorry but this post wound up being super triggering so if you're easily triggered don't read it please i love you bye ***

Today's my 2nd day without. I'm trying to stop, I really am.

I'm just so triggered all the time and it's almost to the point where I don't even care. I feel so numb and I hate myself so much and I feel so worthless. So why not hurt myself? What do I have to lose, honestly? My sanity? It's long gone anyways.

So, if I want to, why not hurt myself? It's not like it's fatal or anything. Just a few scars.. then a few more.. then a ****ing arm full.

Sorry for this post. I'm just so frustrated with everything. Myself in particular.