I'm really scared my boyfriend is lying to me and talking to girls behind my back. I don't know if my fears are real or it's just my bpd. I never trust anyone and I'm always going back and forth with "he loves me" and "he hates you, you're awful and he's cheating on you".
He was up late texting someone last night who he said was his guy friend and he's lied to me before..gone behind my back. He'd never admit it if I brought it up, I'd have to catch him. I know you'll say I shouldn't be with him if he's hurt me but I can't handle being alone. I'd probably kill myself if I was..
I love him and I just hope that he can really love me..