welcome nauticalgyrl.

I sooooooooo hear you and understand.

As a child, and due to abuse, I dissociated. The memories were stuffed back and the emotions were dangerous. They were stuffed back as well...in a different place.

When I began to get the still pictures and tapes playing in the form of memory, the emotions were not there. I felt like some ice queen robot. Then I would have these emotions from nowhere that just didn't fit.

It was all so confusing, yes. It was disturbing to me to know these things and feel nothing. I questioned who and what I am.

Please know that you're not alone and many understand exactly where you are right now.

I'm happy to say that I've come a long way with some way to go. I'll share anything you'd like to hear to help you in your journey and to know that you're not alone.

KD