It sounds like you are yearning for him to be a different kind of person from who he is.

It can be so hard to find someone who is the kind of person that we would like to be with. Waiting for that seems to take forever. So along comes someone who appeals to us a lot. There is a lot we share with that person. We get involved, hoping that eventually we will get on the same page about important things together. Most likely, that never happens.

That's life. It's awful hard to accept. Been there myself . . . even still there. It probably won't change . . . ever. That's awful hard to face.