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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear
I'm wondering.... Do you view your online friends as much more disposable than your IRL friends?
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Actually it's the opposite for me. I have no desire for "real" life friends and I see them as being disposable. I don't have the energy to invest in them and even if I did I don't think I could truly care about them or their lives with my current state of mind. It wasn't always that way with me and I'm not sure why I've changed.
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Maybe sometimes I messed up enough to "deserve" to be dumped....
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It's possible. I have.
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but other times not. and I was left wondering if those ever cared, as they said they did 
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Maybe / Maybe Not. I think online friendships/relationships can be difficult to maintain and keep going. People get busy and it's easy to lose contact. More likely they did care in the moment, but for most people their "real" life is going to take priority over online friendships/relationships.
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Is it easy for you to "move on" and discard those people from your heart, as well as from your life? I won't ever contact any former "friends" again... But I still miss some of them.
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I'm not sure if you mean irl or online or both. irl it probably wouldn't be to difficult for me and I probably wouldn't miss them. I can't think of anyone irl that I have any emotional attachment to. So I don't see a problem.
It's much more difficult with people online for a couple reasons, I don't do well with change, and often people online know more of the real me than people irl so I have more of an emotional connection to them.
I've tried to reconnect with people online and more often than not it's unsuccessful.
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Am I just nuts and a horrible person?
(dxd with bpd, Anxiety, Depression, c-PTSD etc. etc. )
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you're probably nuts but that doesn't make you a horrible person.
