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Originally Posted by allme
None of my previous relationships have been healthy....one was down to an extremely abusive older man and the others have been because of me. I don't think I should be in a relationship, I torture my husband who I have been with for 14 years. It would be healthy if I was healthy mentally but I am far from it and abuse my husband to no end in sight. I sometimes wish he would leave me and go live a happy life with someone who deserves him. I am a monster.
Sorry you have problems of your own  |
You're not a monster, simply someone who struggles with a really difacult mental illness. I know it's hard to remember that, but I'm telling you it's true.
I can also promise you there's something amazing about you that your husband loves, or he'd have been out long ago. NO one is holding a gun to his head. He knows it's difacult sometimes, but he must feel it's worth it.
*Hugs*