The trouble is when you have had it that long it hard to know if its a depression day or an off day like the normal,s get, they take to there beds on odd days to charge there batteries everything is not straight down the line for a normal. I don't look for support after 40 years that has long gone , you have to ride with it, there is not 1 day I stay in the house I have to get out for walk or 1 drink in a bar, ride my bike, I just have to get out or the day descends into a pit of despair. MY wife says nothing she just let me go, I sit on a river bank and fish take photos ect ect. THE only help comes from yourself, finding the strength is another thing, you will find hospitals , therapists, friends ,ect all let you down at some time usually when you need them the most.