I want the depression to lift, the anxiety to lift, the flatness to lift. I want to know what to do with myself. I want to feel encouraged. I want to not worry the meds will interact or not work. I want to be able to focus more, want to want to sleep less. Want to stop having intrusive thoughts. Want to sleep a lot more so I can not deal. Want to not worry about money. Want to do more then survive. Want magic. Anyone got any? T is working her tail off. My mind is a mess right now and all I can do is be a good guinea pig and take the drugs. Lots of drugs.