The services are tomorrow and I have to work. I am worried I will not get to go because I work during that time. I have missed a few days of work lately and I am not sure if can get the time off. I don't know what to do. I know have to call work this afternoon and see if can work only a few hours.
I just shed my first tears since the news, but only a few.....I go right back to feeling numb. I have lost a lot of people in my life in less than 2 years now. Feeling numb right now is only way to get through this and work right now.
Am also trying to help a friend who is very suicidal right now. I went and stayed with her last night and hugged her and listened to her and let her cry on my shoulders. I Love this friend very much and we have a huge history both good and bad.
I'm exhausted as have been on the run for most of the weekend.

Thanks for listening,
Jen