I have this feeling similar to yours, except mine is the regret and worry that comes with unable to build rapport with others. Basically, I feel like other people can't genuinely find me interesting, and they are keeping contact with me because they are really nice. I am in a well-nurtured environment, so I don't have those issues with others telling me I am not good at something. It seems like your problem is really the people around you, and not you. I think it's more interesting to be a bad person than a boring person. This is just me.