Thanks Jon,
Well, I certainly know where I am and something is DEFINITLEY not right. I feel broken inside, and I'm scrambling to put the pieces of myself back together.
I may or may not be going away next week, but it's AFTER that that scares me. The cards will be revealed, and I'll know for sure what's happening in my life. If it's the outcome I fear, my mind seems to be convincing itself that suicide is the ONLY answer. It's got a life of its own, I think.
I'll remember your words, jon. I'll just keep saying them in my mind, over and over.