I think your attitude about empathy is crappy, but at least you're being yourself, which is good.

Have you tried swimming? Yes, there are downsides to the setting, and i see you have sensitive skin, but I find swimming a godsend at my age - 50s. Very good for the body and relaxing when I can find a lane without a bunch of people in it. YMMV. I have never been a jock, but I grind through and swim 1000m per session. It's worth the effort. The payoffs are legion.