Hi guys,

Thank you for the replies..

My worker is away till the 4th November, so I cannot tell anyone what is going on for me accept that her colleague is gonna ring me on Tuesday to check on me, I am unable to talk to her about what is going on in my head cos I am very shy and it takes me ages to trust people to tell them what is going on in my head.. But it is really scary.. When I see my sister she just stands there and stares at me but once I am on my own that is when we talk and she tells me how lonely she is and how she wants me with her and that she needs her big sister cos she is scared..

We still haven't found out how she died, they are still doing tests on her.. She has had bits of her brain and tissue sent away for testing.. It be 5 weeks tomorrow (Monday) that she died and we still have no idea when we can lay her to rest.. My worker is coming to the funeral with me to support me which will help..

But I am feeling struggling so much..