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Originally Posted by hawaii04
As you said, it always felt/feels like something is missing ~ a void that says keep searching and the one that continues to come up at least somewhat empty and unsure. I am so disappointed by this as I don't feel at all 'whole.' I have always looked externally for things/people to make me happy. impulsively I would go and get some sort of FIX and then it would end until the next time. I feel I need to keep looking within myself . . . but I am still at a loss at exactly what it is I am supposed to be searching for. More recently I feel I need to keep looking for ME . . . the one I seemed to have lost, and yet the one that I have never really known.
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Yes, exactly. This is the same for me. My happiness tends to depend entirely on other people. Whether it's them taking care of me or me taking care of them. I can only be happy then.
I do feel good. There's good days...but it's not a constant state. never
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Allie
Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder.
I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress.
I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
