I feel like a wreck tonight. I'm posting replies to others and I probably shouldn't be. I've been trying to sleep for two hours and can't get any. I worked a little today and it went well but afterward everything just collapsed. I'm worried I won't be able to go back there tomorrow out of sheer exhaustion. Maybe I'm not ready to be working yet but I don't have much choice left, I have 400 in my bank account and that's all I have left and I'm already overdue a month on bills and that's considering that I've already slacked off on most of my bills because of money.

Tonight's not sleeping feels just like the not sleeping that began for 4 days straight the night before I went into the hospital. I hope I am not just recycling the nightmare. My anxiety isn't even the same repeating stuff it just gets replaced with new stuff and I can't stop it.

Sorry if any of my replies have been rude tonight.

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