(((Aiuto)))

I am so sorry this therapist has triggered you so much. It doesn't sound like she is a good match for you right now. As hard as it is, try not to let this lead you to not trying to find a different therapist, you may find one that is a better match for you.

You have said that you feel you can at least talk, feel a bit clearer, but I wonder if you might be in a stage where you get angry and inpatient quickly. I went through that period myself for a while, I don't know why that happens with PTSD, it just seems like it has these "confusing stages to it".

I made myself keep looking and I did find a good T that really listens, I mean really listens, stays calm with me and has walked me through some damn challenging stages.

With PTSD it can get "very frustrating" and there are times where the person struggling with it just wants so badly for things to calm down, go smoothly and to actually "get a much needed break" too. Yes, wouldn't it be nice to just be able to get SSDI so you can have a way to "just not worry and kind of feel safe or get some kind of break". Well, unfortunately there is a process one has to go through to get it I guess. Hey, you know you are genuinely struggling, and you don't like to go to the hospital to try to "prove it" either. Hey, I can totally understand that, I sure didn't want to even think of going to the place I had spent time in, it did more harm then good in my case.

It sounds to me like this T is trying to tell you what you need to do to help you get accepted for SSDI. Sometimes, even though we may not like it, we have to do what is required to get what we need.

It sounds like you are "angry" right now. Let yourself calm down some and see if you can see things differently. I have to do that myself sometimes.

(((Hugs)))
OE