My husband & I almost got divorced due to my erratic & really irrational behavior. I was also depressed most of the time, but 5 years ago I finally got diagnosed with bipolar & began a year-long quest to find the right meds for me. I went through an out-patient program at a hospital where I learned about the disorder & got group therapy. I was also in individual therapy.

The hospital had a class for spouses, parents, etc. of people with bp & that helped my husband a lot to realize that I wasn't just a mean, bad person, but that these behaviors were symptoms of my disorder & that I could be helped.

Your might try (if in the U.S.) NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) or DBSA (Depression & Bipolar Support Alliance). Both have classes and support groups for the consumer (the one with the mental illness) as well as family members.

Go see a psychiatrist asap. Maybe your family doc could recommend one. Please let us know how you are doing.--Suzy