Well 15 years of pointless therapy, I basically used it to get out of class, even though it hasn't helped through school and graduating highschool. I mean I am experiencing the symptoms now more profoundly, but I don't know. I had no support to begin with, people are afraid of me even my parents, because they are stupid and ignorant like my Dr's the fact I basically had no treatment in court ordered treatment that was started at 4 years old for me. Never helped wasted all the money, and the fact I played ring around the rosie all damn day for every day in my life to get progress is so maddening. I literally just slam my face into walls as hard as i can to numb it and the voices. I mean I don't know, my friends are even worse with the ignorance they think I have full responsibility which I do and hope i do when I can't think clearly, but never had they supported willingly because they care. They just do pretend to do it to shut me up. No one has or will accept me. I am a walking dead man. I've never experienced reality, I want security, but will never achieve it. The fact I am forever stuck feeling like this and all the other symptoms I listed above I know it was over before I even poked out of the womb.