Im 18, i've had problems since I was 14. They went from very bad to extremely severe. The Dr I seen doesn't seem to care or take me serously. He diagnosed me within 8 minutes of meeting me, he said I had major depressive disorder. Which I knows not true there's so much more than that. I was in a hospital 4 times for anxiety problems from 14 to 15, It would've been alot more times, but I begged my mom not to take me. they never really did anything. I was on meds for mood/anxiety. I know I have a personality disorder, I also have social phobia, at 15 I cut the world off completely, I stoped hanging out with friends deleated social media accounts, turned off my cellphone. Its gotten so bad that I can stay in the house for a month straight, when I leave I wear a hoodie in the car because im scared people are looking at me, im suicidal and sometimes I have homicidal thoughts when angry I dont feel like myself I feel like im dreaming and nothings real. I dont want to be around anyone and im scared, angry, anxious and sad all the time. I cant work and I feel like a looser, I just want a normal life. I feel like its to late, im just getting older. I feel like if angry enough I can really hurt someone, I dont think I would but idk,
I stoped going to thearpy because they dont seem to care which sucks because I want 2 get help. What exaclty should I do??