Ok brain is not working so well today. I have been stuck in the house since last week, only leaving to go to the shops with my partner. Today I have a great opportunity with work to learn some new things. Its something I am interested in and enjoy (usually) but I cannot get out of the house. I feel like I am stuck in here, and I dont want to go out, I am completely content laying down blocking the entire world out. I bet I will regret not taking this opportunity but at the same time I just dont care, getting out of the house is too hard for today - again. I've wasted years of my life, whats another few years. Just wasting time until I die.

Edited- I just forced myself to go outside, and now I feel awful, really awful, it seemed to have taken that much energy out of me, now all I want to do it lay down again. I tried really hard, I really did.