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Old Oct 28, 2013, 12:09 AM
xINFJx xINFJx is offline
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I have a really bad case of "absent-mindedness". I lose my keys, I forget to turn off lights, I don't remember what someone said to me 3 seconds ago lol (usually my mom asking me to do stuff haha) aaaaalll the time. I do have coping skills but it's still worse than the average person.

I don't know how this is going to work with any job. I feel like I can't have any responsibility over anything super important or bad things happen, it feels as if people can't trust or depend on me. It's because I'm so mindless and forgetfull and "ADD" that I just mess up constantly.

I just sit down and cry because I can't get my life in order, no matter how hard I try I keep messing up with everything, I can't get a full time job (due to my mental illness) so I feel stuck in my house, I'm depressed because I see no future with myself because I'm like the weird person in the movies that tries to help others or clean but keeps messing up, breaking things on accident and making more problems for the people they're trying to help.
lol <---- I don't know what this is called. I know I have ADD but yeah.

I need a job where I'm not responsible for thousands of dollars of other people's money, but I'm able to make a decent amount of money (i doubt there's a job out there like it). So driving a semi truck would probably not be a good idea, I'd probably mindlessly scrape the side of a wall with it and being a real estate agent I would probably lose the contract somehow.

I have no money, most jobs are in the corporate business setting and I suck at them. I have to find a trade. Or I'm stuck being a bagger and cart pusher for the rest of my life!!! aaaah!

I feel so stuck, and I'm angry, sad and frustrated about it. I can't have a mean boss or someone that cares more about the company's name/appearance than its workers. I need someone that'll work with me, my issues and be patient and sadly a majority of people pass me by in hiring because they don't want to. Even though I'm an excellent hard worker, as I said I may work hard but I mess up constantly so it wastes money and time. sigh....
It's so frustrating!!! I don't mean to do it, I really don't. I want to be just as capable and dependable as the next guy, but I can't seem to do it.

I feel like I have no way out to get to where I want to go without making my mental issues worse. (i.e. getting a fulltime job where the boss is horrible and the work sucks, I get worse anxiety, depression etc than I already have which makes my performance suffer and I usually come to a stand still because of all the stress).

I've lost two jobs one in 2 weeks and one after 3 months.
I just want to bang my head against a wall. I just suck at everything I do!

the heck?!

what jobs would be better for people that are absent minded?
what do I do?
I'm tired of the attitude of "just suck it up, you're being whiney." I've tried that and at the moment I'm too exhausted to keep that attitude up.
help.
I don't feel like I have anything to offer to the world....sigh....
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