I have shared my story before here. But when I was in high school, a boy cornered me, sexually assaulted me, hit me, made me bleed, etc. And nothing got done about it because victim blaming and "well, boys will be boys" etc.

A thread here has me so triggered. The poster stating that bullying, etc, happens to people with low self esteem. And that at some point we need to ACCEPTED RESPONSIBILITY over what has been done to us because the only victims who apparently count are those who have gone through hurricanes and tornadoes.

I feel so disgusted. I spent years and YEARS telling myself it wasn't my fault. That I was 100 something pounds against a 6'something 200 something pound man. That he was the monster and it had nothing to do with me causing it. But now all that negative thinking has returned. Maybe if I looked more confident, maybe if I yelled louder, Maybe if I didn't wear makeup that day, it wouldn't have happened.

I am disgusted people think this way and now I am struggling to remember that this was not my fault. I did not let or make this happen. Ugh.