So, when I was younger, I was sexually taken advantage of for 6-7 years by a very intimate family member. After a couple years of therapy, and quitting my self-harming (cutting, etc.) addiction, I've finally gotten some control over my anxiety, depression and flashbacks, and had sex *willingly* for the first time to this guy that I've been seeing for about a month. I feel happy that I've been comfortable enough to do this after 8 years, but I'm also scared as to where this leads. I've never been intimate with anyone before, let alone emotionally attached, and I'm scared that opening myself and my heart will also open up my past, and erase all of the progress that I've made so far to becoming happy. I know that PTSD and Depression can't be gotten rid of, but simply managed, and I've had days where I felt deeper in depression than ever before, but I can deal with it better. For anyone else who has PTSD, or has been r**ed, have you ever let someone in close to you? I'M SO SCARED, and I feel like I'm on the verge of an anxiety attack. I'm so scared.