I've read a lot of your posts, secret, and you've really helped me. I know exactly what you're going through, and I know how you feel - I deal with the same thoughts. But please don't. We need you. Your cats need you. I need you. I know that things get really rough sometimes, and some days breathing is unbearable, and all you want to do is to escape the pain, to leave this world, because nothing could be worst than the cold, darkness here. All the pain, all the suffering, all the fear. It's so dark, how can we possibly see the thread to hold on to? But I'm holding your hand in this darkness, secret. And you're holding mine. As long as we're holding hands, you can't possibly get lost, and we can find the light together. Just please, please, don't let go of my hand. I need you here.