Ok I am in love with this guy. I had already posted about him. Long story short, he questions about my entire past - I have told him everything, from the people I flirted with to the one serious relationship before him when I lost my virginity.

He has major trust issues and constantly brings up the past. But at other times, he is extremely sweet and caring. But when he goes into his angry phase, he calls me all hurtful names (minimum of ***hole to even sl** and pros******) and says I belong to all other guys, I am a liar, etc. Yet I hold on and most times I try to be calm and not respond angrily because I deeply regret my past. I don't even talk to anyone except him - my contact with other people is a bare minimum. Even if I move from my seat at office to talk to my manager, he asks me to marry my manager so I usually sit glued to my seat.

Today again he brought up my past and I just asked him as to why he is obsessed over it and if he is hiding anything. He told me to concentrate on my work etc. Then one thing led to anther and I asked him if there is anything he liked of me since he points out many flaws of mine everyday. And he said that there is nothing

He's said many hurtful things - he even says I don't give him pleasure as I am damaged physically and I am used. But of all things, to say that there's nothing he likes of me. That hurts the most.

I regret my past completely and for all my life I am ok to give up on my likes and live for him, and yet to hear that one word reply "nothing" when I asked what he likes of me - that really shattered my heart. I have already been physical with two people and given my all to them. I don't think that anyone will ever accept me after this. It is India after all. I feel used and cheated on. I just wish I could die or just sink into madness oblivion