That's the problem with being mentally ill. No one believes you when you tell them how you feel

I think you're instincts are correct that some doctors are better than others. Even in crazy mode, I could tell my pdoc at the hospital was a hack. But what I did in crazy mode proved I needed some form of medication: I palmed the pills they gave me every night because I thought it was poison.

The point I'm trying to make is that it's great to get second and third opinions, preferably with doctors that use different methodologies. Eventually you'll find a person (person) you trust, and the meds will magically become easier to take everyday. Even if for whatever reason you're not making the best decisions that day.