I have been having problems in my relationship. In short, when I met my lover (call him L), I wasn't a virgin (had lost to a guy I had a long term relationship which I hoped will end in marriage but have never had sex with others) and used to flirt with people and have kissed other guys.
But I love L and even if initially I wasn't open about my past, I finally told him everything. But now he treats me horribly and says I am a used, second-hand person and there is nothing positive in me and I should be with the devil. L is kind and caring but when he gets angry, he even calls me a pros******.
I didn't mean to hurt him so - I wish I hadn't lost my virginity - but then I was cheated on. Can I ever find someone who can get over my past and treat me well? Or am I supposed to resign myself that this is my fate and I am impure and evil?
please pray for me - I am just - going mad