Thank you for all your responses.
I've tried so many different meds, I've lost count. I feel there is more going on then just depression and anxiety, I feel like I'm going crazy.
I did talk to my husband over the weekend and he was very supportive. I see my T this week and will discuss this with her.
I've heard horror stories about going to the hospital and to be honest, I'm scared.
I'm use to the feelings of anxiety and have meds that help, it's the depression that is freaking me out. I haven't felt this bad, since this whole thing started 20 yrs. ago.
I feel I'm moving backwards, after so many years of moving forward.
I thank everyone for the support. I feel better knowing I'm not alone in this!