Im posting this here because in relationships, it got no comments. Well, Im worried about my boyfriends past drug use. We both have a drug problem, but we decided to be sober for eachother. But after 3 months of a very strong love, he broke up with me. It was awful. I look at places in my house, I see us kissing, and him proposing (it was cute but pretend) and him giving me the gifts...I miss him, and he dumped me just last night. But now that he doesnt have me, what if he goes back to drugs? I just want to be with him. I love him, and I dont love easily, (past rape and sexual abuse) After it happened, we were talking on myspace about it, and this is what happened in the short:
me: 'i cant believe its over. it was nice wasnt it? its just weird thinking u dont miss holding me or kissing me. ' and then he replied with 'maybe i do :/' and today i was checking my myspace and he had said 'well maybe i just need a little break and maybe i will see if i miss u and we will see wut happens then but 4 now i just need 2 b free !!!!!! ' (((i copied and pasted that for his exact words)))

i just feel like i have no confidence anymore. like if i was to walk into a room of girls, i wud feel horrible not having my boyfriend to comfort me, or to say "i have a boyfriend, and I LOVE HIM"...u no wut i mean? i called a guy from my old treatment center, it was helpful talking to him, i mite call him again. wen i wanted to go, he said that i shud keep talking to him! i did not expect that! he really did care for my safety. but the point is, i miss my boyfriend, its only the first day, plus my cousin is comming tonight from new jersey. BAD TIME..ING but ugg. i want to stay strong and get over thism but i want to get back with him, BUT i dont want to get hurt again. wut do i do?