Looks like I'm on the way to ending this relationship now.
He's back from touring and I think he's become progressively worse. The skin picking (pimple popping) that I normally encounter once a week or so has turned to every day now, and I've had to tackle him on a couple of occassions for him to stop. I love him, but I don't understand why the urge skyrocketed here.
The biggest turnaround though is his drug addictions. He had been smoking a chemical blend known as spice for a few years, which hasn't been a problem for me. You could simply drive to the store to pick this stuff up for only $10. I know he still owes me about $100, but I've been giving him time to pay me back. Well, he quit his spice for good and now he's taken up pot. Says that pot is cheaper but he's spending $40 a day in contrast to the $10. Why is he oblivious to these facts?
So, whenever I'm with him, it's become a story of drug dealers calling and him forcing me to drive out across town to find them. I think I should let him be for good, though a part of me will be hurting. Feeling 2nd place to drugs is an awful feeling, especially when that person doesn't see the damage. I've explained that I'm not willing to support his needs because it's not my place. Also mentioned to him that he's loving me but he's not respecting me or my boundaries... yet that doesn't seem to click.
Do you guys know where I'm coming from? I'm not bipolar, but I'm wondering how similar my scenario is and what ends up typically happening in these events.
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