Thank you guys It was very hard, but i am glad i have started to talk about it and about the feelings of guilt i have and the fear i felt.

The adult, more logical side of myself, knows i wasn't responsible and shouldn't feel guilty, but the child side of me is still paralysed with guilt and fear.

Wouldn't it be lovely if we could turn off our emotional brains after a therapy session? That's what I'd like to do right now.