To Run or not to Run that is the question. Same place I am at.
Trying to decide when it is right is hard. You mentioned judgement. I feel the same and have not gone back to my T. The thing is its in my head and if I forget for awhile and am doing well then something or someone makes me remember. Even though I am an adult one inference from my Dad or friends and all falls apart. Maybe we need to fiquire out whether we are actually ruuning away or just trying to start over without put downs. When are we making a "sound" decision? Hard to tell when we are depresssed. Wishing you luck.