I have made so many stupid choices from the people I've called friend, to the people I've dated, to the way I've pushed other people away. Totally get where you're coming from. You're not alone! And trust me, I HIGHLY doubt anyone (BPD or not), has went through their life without doing something dumb. Acceptance of the past may help you feel better- you made your choices the best you could given your circumstances at the time. Hindsight is 20/20, and so you can't beat yourself up now for things in the past- so much easier in principal than practice though.

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