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biplol said:
I have a quick question, and maybe that is one of the reason of me saying I don't agree with AA approach.
And please forgive me because I'm ignorant in this, I'm here trying to learn and not judging anybody, with that been said.
If you don't believe in God, How do you fill the empty spot that drugs/alcohol leave in you?
And is not that I don't believe, but I think there are a lot of people out there that don’t, so how do you get to the point were you feel complete without the addiction and at the same time it happens that you are not a believer?
I think you guys are doing great and whatever helps you stay sober is good.

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HI Bipol, I too struggled with this question when I first got sboer. I went to AA and the peer support and Identification were great at that time!...but as I got deeper into AA, well it never felt quite right for me...all these people wandering round in a pink haze of "god" and I didn't feel it...I eventually walked away AA with their stinging threats in my ears off "I will drink again and only meeting makers make it"...I had so much fear..BUT I've learnt that not only do I not need AA but I've found what it is that I do want to believe in and that is Myself!...I didnt want to put all my trust and energy into some outside force...I needed to get to know me...not some "god".....I didnt want to replace alcohol worship for some other kind of worship...its me that I struggle with...its me that I spend 24/7 with...learning about any "god" of any faith will only give me knowledge of that...not of who I am...I didnt want to parrott phrases repeated by many in meetings...I wanted to think for myself...unlike when I was drinking I would believe in whatever the next drunk believed in...I wanted that sense of self..the one I had been trying to drown in alcohol...i was looking for my sprit in a bottle of sprits...have I said to much? LOL I normally do LOL