hugssssss littlep. That situation sounds so difficult. You sound so thoughtful to begin to consider how others are affected by your depression. Perhaps couples therapy or therapy for yourself would help if he isnt interested in help. I read some books from the public library on depression that really helped me. I hope you continue to reach out to friends, family, online help, and other resources. All things can change. Even this trial. Hugssss
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