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I have no desire to defend your therapist, as she could have gone about this in all kinds other ways, which she chose not to do, to your detriment, and I'm so sorry for this.
But as far as she feeling threatened, what occurs to me is that, in such a dissociative state, it's possible not only to not be aware of what one is doing, but not have control over what one is doing? It's possible -and I'm just putting this out there as a possibility- that she recognizes that this wasn't your fault and that it was a flashback and dissociative episode, but that you appeared to be threatening (perhaps she reminded you, at that moment, within the flashback, of someone who hurt you?) and she was afraid that in that state you did not have control over your actions. In other words, she may not blame you at all, but nonetheless was afraid that you were not in the driver's seat at that time, interpreted your behavior/demeanor as threatening, and was afraid you'd act in a way you normally wouldn't, when not in that state. Again, no fault on your part.
I hope you can find some closure in the phone conversation. As others have suggested, I'd really suggest writing down the questions you have, the things you want to say. I suspect that in the moment, as it will be so emotionally charged, it might be hard to remember, focus, etc.
Again, I'm so sorry this has happened, she dealt with this very very poorly.
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