You can do this. I know it is hard but you can get through this. In time it does get easier again. Take it a day at a time. You can get through this week.

I know that you don't want to be in hospital, but talk to your worker about it when she is back. She may have some suggestions about ways you can cope at home, but if not it might also not be a bad thing at the moment. To be able to look after others we also have to look after ourselves first. You are right that your family still need you - but they need you to be healthy. They need you to be alive. They need you to be ok. If taking some time out and being admitted helps that then maybe it isn't a bad thing.

Thinking of you