Hi. I have not ever posted in this forum. but here goes with what I have been dealing with.

I have this strange feeling. I want to get out and roam. I want to shop, not buy anything, just get out and wonder around. I want to just roam. I go for a drive, or I go for a trip to town. It is like an uncontrollable urge to just get out and drive, or walk. It is most odd. I do recognize this feeling though. When I started dealing with all this stuff about Rape, I had an unexplained need to drive, to roam, to just get out and get away. I don’t know what to do other then do drive, or walk, or go to town. It is not distressing. It just feels like migration must feel to an animal. Something is leading me to roam.
Last week I went for a drive on the parkway and ended up in Town, 30 miles away. The next day, I went to the book exchange and once upon a child. The next day I went to town w/ my mom t help baby set my nephew. The next day I went to get groceries.
This week which was just yesterday, I went for a drive. I wanted to go for a walk or a trip to town but I didn’t want to go alone. I put it off for about 3 hours but finally went for a drive for about an hour and a half. My son went with me and we drove around here. We went less than 10 miles away. It doesn’t worry me, it is just a powerful sensation to go and roam he countryside. I noticed while we were out that I seemed super sensitive to noise. The radio seemed too loud. My son seemed to talk to loud. After we got home my little girl and I went for a walk just here around the property for a little bit. After the walk I felt a lot better a lot less restless. I don’t know why I have that feeling. Is it due to the weather, the change in temperature, or is it a sign of upcoming events I will be dealing with. I just don’t know. I have been working on CSA. And have started having some pieces of memories return.

Does anyone else do this. Any idea what this is or why I wnat to do this.