I haven't posted in this part of the forum, just a few posts in the anxiety forum. I'm not new to self injury--cutting, but it's gotten bad (for me) within the last 2 months where I've been doing it more often and worse than normal.

Anyway, on Friday I had an appointment with my therapist that really upset me by the time I left. I was shaking during the session. I wrote him a letter the previous session, and he told me that he read my letter, and it wasn't anything that surprised him and that it was helpful. But he kept pushing me to try medication again. He basically drilled me about the reasons why I'm so resistant to it, which turned into me talking about my father and my childhood when I'm 27 years old. And just saying that he wasn't going to let me leave until I either said No or could agree to try the med for 2 months. And I feel like now I'm even more of a disappointment and failure because I can't function without meds. I actually told him I might just take the whole bottle, and he said it wouldn't do anything but make me sick. So now I just feel stupid. Not to mention that I told him I'd rather be dead than have my IVIG infusion this week so I don't know what to do anymore.

That night I was still extremely upset, so I ended up taking some pills but not enough to do any damage but feel a bit sick. Does that count as self harm or an attempt? I have a session coming up this Friday, and I'm not sure if I should call him tomorrow and let him know so he'll be prepared on Friday or not talk about it at all. What would you do?