sorry that was abit of a painful and angry rant .I think the bottom line is actually I am not able to accept myself at this weight.maybe i should do some positive affirmations and nurturing mantras like ;I love and take care of my body ,I accept and approve of my body,I am beautiful inside and out ,I am at a good healthy weight,I dont care and am not interested in what other people think of my body ,I am grateful to be alive ,my heart beats with love ...ect ect yes I will try to say this stuff every day .
blueflower