Over the Holidays I went through an event to say the least. I was getting number and number and depressed. Frozen. I did nothing but lay around, tired and fighting a virus. I got up to shower and started to cry and couldn't stop. It went on and on. It felt from very deep inside me. A couple of friends said it was old stuff and although I felt awful it would pass After a day of this the I Googled "Prolonged crying". I found NCPTSD a Veterans Sight but with lots of good info. You have to explore a bit but lots of stuff. Also I found "bullyonline" - the jackpot- and it makes so much make sense for dealing with ptsd and trauma and grief. It explains the constant pictures some of us get of our past that we can't let go of. I keep finding although I know lots of terms and I have been told or labeled with this or that I don't really know what they mean or understand how it affects me and I am sure I am not the only one. You get diagnosed but what does that really look like? Everyones sharing here helps with bits to put the picture together. And it is only as I am strong enough to handle each bit that I learn. Several grief sights had bits too and a couple were judgemental so got out of them fast. Anyway some of you might like to take a look.