Hiya,

My therapist does guided imagery with me as therapy. I like it and am always surprised at the results. The good feeling doesn't last but a day or so, but that is a long time to feel good for me, at this point.

The guided imagery takes up most of the hour and sometimes I feel 'cheated' out of talk time. I like talking to her, although it is still very hard. I just like being there.

Have any of you done guided imagery and if so did you like it, was it helpful, and did you also have sessions where you just talked?

About the talking... I concluded recently that one reason I may have trouble talking is because I hear replies as criticism and I don't want to hear criticism. I want support and to feel cared about. But I also know I hear criticism when it isn't criticism; I turn it into criticism. But therapy is about challenging the old and learning the new so I have to find a way to deal with it. I also know that I am afraid I will say THE ONE THING that will make her abandon me; that I will show a part of me that is so awful she won't want to work with me or that I am too ill to be treated by her.

Do you know what I mean?

I often go in with things I want to talk about but am afraid to bring up. Or it is something we've discussed before and I think I shouldn't bring it up. I have one very recurring issue and I am afraid if I keep trying to talk about it she will think I am not paying attention when we talk or that I'm not 'getting it'.




ECHOES