Littlep,
I completely agree with Ozzie. If this is a vacation it must be one to Club Dread or something. I have said this before to people in my life and very few understand it but so many people who do not suffer from depression look at people who do as being "wimps" or quitters who just feel sorry for themselves and drag others down.
When I was 13 and started going to therapy for my depression I can remember after my first session. My father screamed at me for over an hour about what the hell was wrong with me that I needed to be on medication and go to therapy. People get upset and there was nothing special about me that deserved paying all that money. I just needed to suck it up and start talking to him and my mother when I was upset. He literally told me that of course I would feel better on medication because it was a drug and everyone feels better when they are on drugs and I would become a druggie.
My father sounds a lot like your husband in a lot of ways. When we tried going to family counseling after the first time I tried to kill myself because a lot of it was due to my parents...my father started screaming at the therapist and almost threw a lamp across the room at me before he stormed out of the room. Needless to say my family never went back and told me I had to deal with my own problems.
You are not alone and this is a wonderful place for you.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>