Thanks for the support... Today was a bit better - i talked to my psychol. yesterday and she helped a lot. Made me look at things slightly differently so today I was better. It just feels like i'm on a hamster wheel sometimes, like i'm going nowhere and can't see the point. scared of falling - this week has been scarily bad - yesterday i almost called in sick because i truly couldn't get out of bed - not even to work from home (which is what i ended up doing since i couldn't show my face at work in such a miserable state). sorry, very wordy, but have no one to talk to about how i feel... sometimes life just feels to hard to continue with the effort. it's nice to talk to pple who actually can understand what it's like.