Thanks Open Eyes I appreciate you greatly!

You said:Hey, you know you are genuinely struggling, and you don't like to go to the hospital to try to "prove it" either. Hey, I can totally understand that, I sure didn't want to even think of going to the place I had spent time in, it did more harm then good in my case.

I am sorry for the experience you had to go threw.I believe and know that in a hospital I would get more trauma and like you it would do me more harm than good. With that being said I do not want anymore trauma in my life. I am beat up from this life and I am actually at a place in my life where I am starting to feel a piece of humble.

I will have to fight with SSDI for years and years because I am young and this country is broke! The system has failed me for when I needed it most. I just needed it until I got better, but I refuse to get worse in the process of getting it and then have to start ALL OVER with my self healing. I have came so far a year ago I could not walk or talk. I am scared to go back. I just am literally stuck between a rock and hell dealing with SSDI and my own good. I know I am not alone