thank you very much. Well I've been to the derm, and she said, I have to stop the med completely. pretty unfortunate, but I will have to see how am I doing without meds now eventually.... I still have a feeling, I might have been able to continue with the med, but it's not me, who should decide this. The derm said, we shouldn't risk that it might turn into something more serious. I pretty much don't know what the helll to do anymore, because anti-depressants caused me mania, depakene caused depression, lamictal caused rashes... is there a med out there that actually helps with depression? yuck, I feel like I had enough.. so many times trying to get out of this, and everything I try ends up as a failure.

thanks for your reply anyways!