I chose not to have kids because of the risk of passing on my monster, bipolar 1. I feel regret some days when I see undiagnosed friends and others who had children for selfish reasons doing a horrible and worse job of parenting. I often think I would have been a much better parent and here I am giving up that option to save a child from being me. Sometimes it makes me wonder if this has been the right decision afterall, bull that's probably just my biological clock speaking.