Big hugs your way. Just to let you know you aren't alone in your battle there is tonnes of us that feel the same as you do. We also self medicate maybe not with gravol but other drugs or alcohol or credit card shopping. We know all those emotions to well you are already coping pretty good so give yourself a pat on the back. It doesn't have to be perfect the way you are coping just needs to be right for you at the given time. But maybe you wanna do something for yourself like take a bubble bath or a long hot shower...its all about pampering yourself. you are coping just remember that