Yis Welcome, I read your story, i am schitzophrenic, bipolar, PTSD, depression an other things. I didn't want to believe it when the label of schitzophrenia was placed on me, but i knew it anyway, i just didn't want to be on meds the rest of my life, that was over 25 years ago. After trial and error, different meds, i'm pretty much stable, except for the depression, i am happy someone tried to help me, not at first accepting help, i fought it the whole way through, i did not want to be on meds, and much more labelled as something mentally. I hope you can find a doc you can trust and can relate to your diagnosis if any, and a good t i will pray you find one you can trust and will believe you, i thought at first i was schitzophrenic, and i was right, just didn't want to believe it. Maybe you do have it, you need the help if you really are, like you believe it to be, that is the first step i think is to accept it. There are a lot of quacks out there who like someone else said just was book smart, but not reality smart when it comes to their jobs, all they do is write scripts. T's can be hard to get along with at first, but after the ice is broken, there may be a level of trust and some type of friendship that is good. Please don't give up there ARE people who do care, i learned the hard way, but at this stage in my life i have seen a miracle in myself concerning my diagnosis and the help i got that i definately needed. Good Luck and have a nice day!!!!!